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Secret Dreamworld!

Secret Dreamworld.. nah this is not mine, I don’t have one.  Well, I’m just wondering why I am surrounded by people who have this thing I called “secret dream world”.  Let me explain  this.. 

SD1…  I  met her a few years ago and she actually became a good friend of mine. At first I wasnt aware of her secret dream world. She’s a  nice person, I actually admired her for having achieved so many things in life at her quite young age.  Almost everyday, she keeps bragging about her accomplishments, her wealthy friends, her 6-bedroom house in an exclusive village, extravagant life she used to live, wealthy ex-bf etc etc.. Then later on I noticed that something was kind of wrong, so I carefully listened to the details of her stories. Just when I was having doubts already, another friend who happened to know her too, told me to be careful with this person as she is not what she’s trying to portray. It was confirmed by another friend too, and after just a few more months, I proved that she is not who she is. Just feel sad for her, she is nice person (MINUS her SECRET DREAMWORLD).

SD2… I’ve known her for quite a long time now but it was only about two years ago that I noticed her secret dream world.  Everytime I tell her even the smallest thing that I have or something accomplished, she would also tell a similar story which is not true most of the time, or whenever she hears stories of other people, she also creates a story of her own. It seems to me that she always wants to “belong”. Travels, books, food, fashion stuff, work stuff… talk to her about these and she’s got them too…. in her secret dream world. I remember talking to her about something that I was looking for but couldn’t find, then she eagerly  said she’s actually seen it… so I asked her bout the details as I was really suspicious and I was right,  it  was another i-belong-moment of hers. She’s one great pretender.. I wish she would stop it. I hope somebody would  tell/remind her to wake up and act normal. I’ve tried in my own discrete little ways, but I failed. I really do hope she would “wake up” one day and leave her secret dream world…. 

There’s one more person but she’s still under observation.. 🙂

You maybe wondering why I’m so bothered by this, it’s because whenever I talk to them I tend to be paranoid, I’m not sure if there’s truth in what they’re saying 🙂 I hate paranoia but I can’t help it, knowing these people are full of lies and pretensions.  I don’t know when (or when not) to believe them…


Frustration X2

I’ve been wanting to get myself the new HP mini 5102. This one is really interesting because of its touch screen feature, that’s all I want from it, honestly 🙂 I’m trying to convince myself that I don’t need as I still have my laptop. I’m not really into gadgets,  I’m fine with just the basics… iPod touch and 2 mobile phones,  and besides I’m saving for my next trip.  Since I couldn’t get my mind off it for a few weeks now, I left work early today and headed to the computer shop. And to my disappointment, it’s not available here (yet). The salesman told me that they have no idea if it’s going to be released  here. So I left the shop frustrated and tried a couple more shops in the area but there was no luck at all. Maybe I’ll try again… to convince myself not to get it as I really don’t need it??? or try to go to other more shops in the coming days???  we’ll see…  🙂

After I left the computer shops, I went to the clothes shops to look for something to cheer myself up. I got really tired walking around as I was in my office heels,  but didn’t find anything that fits me right as I’m really getting heavier  these days. So, out of frustration number 2, I hurried to M&S to get myself a big box of my favorite cereals. I was kind of starving already but I told myself not to eat out as I’m trying to lose weight now, convinced myself that I’m gonna have a bowl of tasty  cereals with nuts and fruits when I get home.  Fortunately the traffic was not bad and I was able to get home really quick.  So i treated myself to a hefty serving of cereals… and mint flavored dark chocolates for desert.. I’m a bit happy now 🙂

Nails done (not)…. at last

I’ve been wanting to get a manicure for a few days now but I couldnt seem to find time to do it. Tonight after I left work, I hurried to the salon but my mancurist has left home already. I had no choice but to pick someone else as I may not find time again tomorrow. It was a bit late already (I was their last client tonight) and everybody seemed  to be getting ready to go home. I was kinda of tired too so I decided to just get a simple french tips. When the manicurist finished doing my left hand, I examined my nails and I was kinda frustrated with what she did. I guess she read my face and asked me if I didnt like it, of course I said yes (in my nicest way of displaying my disappointment). So I told her to remove the polish and apply a colorless polish instead. I’ve waited for a few days to get my nails done only to end up in a colorless nail polish.  Better get up early and leave work early next time 🙂 This is my New year’s resolution by the way… but it’s  a failure once  again…  I’ll try again next year 🙂